Before Pictures

Taking before pictures has never bothered me. I mean, it is what it is, right?

You put on a brave face, find some decent lighting, and set the timer on your phone or take a mirror selfie. You have full control over who sees it and WHEN they see it. You also get to take as many pics as you need to before selecting the perfect “before”.

However, when you step into a room of strangers, a professional photographer, and nothing but a tiny bikini on under your sweat clothes. . .yeah, I sweated more in that 10min than I ever have during a workout!

For the challenge, it said that the judging is mainly based on pictures. So being the nerd that I am, I looked at the winners from past challenges. All of their before pictures were in two piece swimwear or active-wear.

I assumed that the other participants would be stripping down to their skivvies too. . .but NOOOOOOO. . .just me, my chubs and my tiny bikini lol

I consider myself a pretty confident person, but let me tell you, I wanted to throw up and get some cardio by running away! But I didn’t. I just said, well, I’m wearing a bikini so y’all get ready for all my glory!

I can only hope that my winter body and skin tone look nice against the black bikini and white background. Maybe the headline on the USA Today paper was engaging enough to draw everyone’s attention to the headline instead of my waistline.

Or. . .maybe everyone there was just like me. Too busy judging their own bodies to give a hoot about the glaringly white, chubby chick, sweating in the bikini.

Take a moment and think about the last time you were anxious about what others thought. Are you giving “them” and their thoughts of you more power than you give yourself? Do you let what MIGHT be going through a strangers mind stop you from experiencing something great?

I didn’t like the feeling of standing there, a foot away from a professional lens with all my razor bumps and super chubs, but I can guarantee I’m gonna like posing down in 12 weeks looking like a winner! (and hopefully with a tan!)201511_1122_aaaba_sm

 

 

Technically Speaking

If I could choose the biggest motivator for keeping me on track, it would be technology- hands down.

After just two nights of sleep with my FitBitHR, I learned to go to bed at a decent hour. Why? Because I get a smiley face on my app when I get 8hrs! Call it what you want, but guess what? I’m feeling better because I’m getting the amount of sleep I need!!

Add that to the fact that My Fitness Pal is teaching me what’s “worth” it to eat and drink. If I’m out, I can check foods on the menu and see what the better options are.

Ever try sticking with your meal plan but you’re hungry as all get out once you add in your workouts?? Since MFP and FitBit are linked, it takes into account my exercise & I’ll know if I need to throw in another boiled egg or two πŸ˜‰

Thermos has recently come out with a Smart Lid that tracks your water intake and will get you reminders. The iPhone app is up and running, still waiting for the Android app to drop. Once again, the Smart lid connects to FitBit and MFP to give you a total health tracking system! (And yes, added it to my wish list already)

Can you meet your fitness goals without all this fancy stuff? Of course! But let’s be real. I’ve been doing everything on the free for two years & nothing changed. I needed a SPECIFIC plan with ACTUAL stats. . .and that meant tools and a personal trainer.

The money that I used to spend on food, I used as an investment for a healthier lifestyle. One size fits most approach works for MOST. . .but as y’all are learning, I’m not most ❀

What are YOUR favorite tools??

Rice Cake with Peanut Budder

So things are going really well! I’ve been learning how to be flexible with my meal plan without going CRAZY. It’s been nice to “splurge” a little here and there πŸ™‚ With the My Fitness Pal app, I can easily see why it’s worth it to just get a kids portion of a meal out, vs either not eating/going HAM on a bad decision!

Speaking of flexibility, I just spent the weekend with my sister. Did I load up my little Gladware containers and head up the mountain?? Nope!

I made up my mind that I was going to enjoy my weekend. .  within reason.

But guess what happened, my sister lovingly prepared meals and snacks for me because she had been reading my blog ❀

Even my 3yr old niece was on board with my changes and asked “Do you want some rice cake, with peanut budder?”

This. This is why it’s important to let folks know what’s going on in your life (disclaimer: don’t be that person that just non-stop salivates and obsesses over what they CAN’T have. . .😒)

I’ve also noticed that several coworkers have started cleaning up their diets and such! They’ll kinda check in with me and tell me what’s up.

PS, I have a FitBit now, so feel free to add me 💪💪💪

No Flex Zone

My first training session went great. Looks like my trainer is going to be Helen. She was awesome & even sent me a text later in the afternoon to followup and said I could text her any time πŸ™‚

I felt SO good. My workouts were simple and challenging yet I didn’t feel helpless and defeated.

Also, I talked with her about indulging. . .you know, I still want to be able to enjoy some of my fave foods, life is just too short!!

She said the best way to do that is to have a splurge snack everyday. A little something to break up the monotony of boiled chicken and brown rice 😛

As promised, here are my before pictures! Got some serious work to do on my torso so I can get healthy. . .of course, if I end up looking like an⏳ that wouldn’t hurt either!

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Slow Motion

So it’s been a week since my fit test and here’s what’s happened:

Went in for my personal training session. . .and my trainer had to cancel because he was feeling ill. . .

I mean, it’s not the first time professional help has canceled on me. I’ve had several shrinks skip out once they learned what the were dealing with!!

Needless to say, I have my next appointment this Wednesday.

I stuck to my meal plan all week & did some “celebrating” over the weekend. I’ll be honest, even though I enjoyed it & didn’t feel guilty, I think I’ll be less inclined to wile out again. It totally screwed with my appetite for the following 2 days!

I’ve been diligent to log my food. I’ve found the easiest way to track my food is to use My Fitness Pal. You can scan the bar code of what you consume. . .even type in the places you go out to eat!

Feel free to check out my little profile & add me. I made everything public so you can see exactly what I’m eating (unless I under eat. . .the app won’t allow those posts to show. . .which I think is a good thing!)

Hope to have some updates on my first session as well as before pics for y’all on Wednesday! Until then ✌

Fit Test Day 1

Where: Gold’s Gym
Time: 7:00am (can you say brain dead!?)
Trainer: Mario

Height: 5ft
Weight: 134

Step Test: ❀rate @ 170 BPM, test stopped at 2min23sec
Pushups: 10 knee
Sit ups: 7

I got very emotional after the step test. As I lay there in the “recovery” position, I told Mario that this is what happens every time I try to work out. I go as hard as I can, but before I can even hit 3 minutes, my body shuts down.

He told me not to worry and that he can help me. Do you know how good it felt to hear that. . .and BELIEVE it?

My body is unique and has very specific needs. To know that I have 3x’s a week for a solid year with a professional that knows exactly how to help my individual issues scientifically. . .yeah, I feel pretty good.

Break the Cycle

Sometimes you don’t realize that you are a part of a cycle. Sometimes you do, but you don’t know how to break it.

You worry that you will end up just like the people that hurt you. Wondering if you should even take certain opportunities for fear of royally screwing things up.

Guess what- the fact that you’re worried about it is a step in the right direction! You’ve ACKNOWLEDGED that you were hurt. You realize that you have been mistreated. Not wanting to cause misery for someone else is a good thing. However, if your fear is getting in the way of living your BEST life, then it’s time to break the cycle IN YOUR HEAD!

For me, it’s my physical appearance (see my Showgirl blog). It’s like no matter WHAT I look like, I get negative feedback. And for me, I’d rather those people in my life not feel threatened by me when I look good. . .that is until my breakthrough a few nights ago. I was telling my success partner that I know I can get in shape with abs and all the rest- I’ve DONE it before. But every time I’ve looked good, I get accused of forgetting where I’ve come from, being showy, and self-absorbed. Are those things true?? Pft- who knows. . .but I do know one thing, if those things are true, they’ve ALWAYS been there, not just because I look good. The same goes for when I’ve put on weight. The whole “are you pregnant”, you sure have gotten “healthy” and here comes chubby.

Because I’ve always been proud of who I am and consider myself to be a very caring and approachable person, I quickly realized that I would rather be a little chubby & deal with stupid remarks, than to look good and make people feel inferior.

Not any more. I will NOT let the voices of a few, trump the SUPPORT of the many. I want and DESERVE to look and feel my best. Self-sabotage is no longer an option. It is not productive, nor is it fair to the majority of people that look to me for inspiration. Haters will always hate. And if someone feels inferior because of me, then maybe they should take some time to get to KNOW me. . .because I’m the farthest thing from superior. . .just ask my friends β™₯

Are you holding back in your life because of physical, verbal, emotional abuse? Are you ready to BREAK THE CYCLE??*kisses*

 

K-Tape: The 8th wonder!

So, my right knee has been bothering me pretty bad for about a month now, and I’ve tried to talk myself out of the pain. . .
This Saturday, I was wearing shorts (thanks to the awesome weather here in the Carolinas) and my friend noticed that my knee was quite swollen- she said I need to be careful, could be a torn meniscus. of course, I’ve never heard of that before! All I know is it’s pain and swelling behind my knee!
I did some research & asked around to find that RICE was what I needed: rest, ice, compression, elevation. It was easy to do all but the compression part- I have kid sized legs, so it made it difficult. . .until. . .K Tape.

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I was very skeptical if this- although, I had seen people in the Olympics wearing tape. . .I had my doubts. I got it in pink, just to be safe, then hopped on YouTube to see how to wrap it. Literally, after a min, I felt a release!! I thought it was placebo or something. . .I walked around on it, and sure enough, it was WAY better. Granted, still tender, but the intensity was gone =D
After a few hours, I mindfully did some yoga- was even able to hold this pose pain-free

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I’m sure most of you already knew about this tape, but for me, this us a game changer!!